One of those days

Today was one of those days.

We are able to do anything on the clinic floor now.

I can cut, color, and do whatever to people's hair on the clinic floor.

This wasn't supposed to happen for another 4 weeks. I haven't even been through Color 3 or Sculpture 3.

But because of a teacher being let go we only have one teacher for the juniors and seniors. The seniors get him on Tuesday all day while we are out on the clinic floor. And we have him in the classroom the rest of the week.

This terrifies me. I am one of those people that I don't feel confident if I don't know all of what I am supposed to or if I have not mentally prepared for something (yes I know you can't mentally prepare for everything in life, but if I could trust me I sooo would!)

Needless to say I have been worrying about this for quite some time now. I know I just need to get the first one over with and it will be a piece of cake from there. I know that I am in school to learn. But I am learning that I am a perfectionist. I am afraid that if I mess up on my first school haircut or color that I will be afraid to do more of them. I have cut several people's hair, but I knew them. I even highlighted my sisters hair. I swore up and down I would NEVER do her hair cause she would be my toughest critique and if I messed it up I knew she would probably make me cry and tell everyone (maybe even people she met in line at wal-mart that I messed up her hair). Ok so maybe I'm over exaggerating about her a little...but really it's just a little.. you see dramatics runs in our family and me and my sister tend to get a little over dramatic SOMETIMES ( you know I lova ya sam!). But needless to say her hair turned out good and she loved it. But my fear is still the strangers that walk in off the street that scare me most. But I am working on overcoming it. So I am on the floor again on Saturday and I will let you know how it goes.

I should probably rename this blog confessions of a worryacholic! ha!

~Megan